Today as I turn 30, I never imagined it would be like this…
I reflect on how far I have come, the woman I have become,
The roads I travelled, the paths I had to walk alone because no one cared to notice I needed a companion or because I had no choice or because I made the decision to go on.
The best of friends I had, that just went mute despite the effort I tried to bring them back
The wonderful people I met in the journey of life that I thought I would never go on without but changed paths.
The friends and people I miss and wish they would share with me in this life because of how deeply they impacted my life but I cannot reach out because life happened,
The battles I had with myself to find who I am,
The rivers of tears I shade silently,
I never imagine being 30, the many times I survived harm, danger and even death in the hands of those I thought meant well.
The tough life-defining decisions I had to make that have landed me where I am, looking back at the options I left, I wonder if my life would have been different, I wonder…
Being 30 is a miracle, God is great indeed, I am a testimony.
Without God hmmm, I wouldn’t have made this far… Happy Birthday to me.
Author: Ajal Mary Theodorah
The Two Sides of Theodorah 